Who could resist this?

Can you say no to this darling face?

I can't either so I told her she could get the Redbox movie and she responded with this... OH I love this little girl!

Art

For some reason I tend to be amazed at some of the pictures Haliey can draw. I guess i just think of her as a baby and not quite able to grasp the idea of drawing a picture. I was shocked at these pictures I found today that she had drawn. I love teh butterfly and the cookies! SHe is too cute! Butterfly, Cat and Cookie

Cookie and Dog

Pick Your Battles..

I guess I have to say I strive hard to be a perfectionist. Some things I am better at then others. One of my biggest ones though has to be Hailey's clothes and appearance. Call me OCD but i get a little crazy when it comes to her clothing. One of my good friends teases me because for instance we can't wear mis matched clothing or halloween jammies in the summer. stuff like that. I am starting to bend a little and pick my battles. Needless to say Hailey was out riding her bike for a few mins the other night in Jammies. I am trying not to hyperventalate but let her enjoy life. I had to document the experience haha!

Struggles Part 1

I don't know what made me decide to finally sit down and write some of my feelings. Maybe I am sick of only keeping it inside of me. Maybe I just need to write it down and get it all out there. So if your bored already don't read on.

During the past year I have had quite the ups and downs. I feel like I have been struggling constantely. I don't know why but within the last few months I think its gotten horrible. I keep thinking maybe better days will come and then things get worse. As if its even possible. Its hard to try to have a positive attitude or move on with things when you are struggling and don't feel like you have much support.

Lately I have felt very lonely. I have a few close friends who are always there for me but I really wish that I could get other people to be my friend. I try very hard to constantely do nice things for others. I feel like I would bend over backwards for anyone. Sadly apparently all I end up doing is hurting myself. I give and I give and I give and no one cares to be my friend or cares to get to know me. I can't believe how rude and unfriendly so many people can be to me. I mean seriously do I have Please hate me written all over me. It sure feels like it. I find it really odd that I can go certian places and have not one person say Hi, How are you? Or even acknowlege I am around. Is it really too much to ask for someone to be nice to me? I'd love some one to say Hi or ask How I am doing or Hey even invite me to join them in something. I guess its too much to ask. Sadly I think one of the things that could help me most in life right now was to have someone be my friend. I feel like an idiot saying it but not having many friends really can be depressing. I do have to admit for the dear cousins, various family, and a few special friends who honestly show they care. I am super grateful for you. I hope you realize how important your friendship is to me. I can't tell you how much I value you in my life. It brings tears to my eyes to know at least a few people do care about me and who am I.

I think I am a fun person to be around. I wish more people could see the good in me. I try very hard and as much as I think I would be a great person to get to know I guess most people think otherwise. I can't even describe how much having a true friend in life means to someone like me./

When I think of this this song comes to my head:



sorry only audio file i could get to work....GRRR


Be That Friend
By Michael McLean


Well your friends know what's right and your friends know what's wrong
And your friends all know sometimes its hard to choose.
But the friend who helps you see where your choices will lead
Is the kind of friend you never want to lose.

It's that friend who leads with love, doesn't push, doesn't shove
Just reminds you of the truth you've always known.
Then does more than just talk, takes your hand and starts to walk
By your side along the road that leads back home.

And this friend seems to see all the great things you'll be
Even when some things you do would prove him wrong.
But he always believes that the real you he sees
Is a champion he's simply cheering on.

And the love that you feel from a friend that is real
Is more powerful than anything on earth.
For it lifts and it grows and it strengthens and flows
It's what allows the soul to feel just what they're worth.

So many lonely souls are calling
and a brighter star would not be falling
if only they had a friend
a real friend

Everyone hopes to find one true friend who's the kind
They can count on for forever and a day.
Be that friend, be that kind that you prayed you might find
And you'll always have a best friend, come what may
---

This song sums up so much of my feelings and thoughts about friends. I wish that I could find more good people out there who acted like the words in this song. My goal to you is "Be That Friend" And seek out those who could really use a friend. YOu don't know how much having a decent friend could be of assistance to someone like me struggling with many things in life. thanks for reading sorry for rambling.



And once again thanks to those of you who are that friend to me. YOU know how you are. I love you all so much.

Ogden Dinosaur Park

Today Hailey and I got to go to her cousin Ben's birthday party at the Dinosaur Park in Ogden. She had a great time. WE are glad we were able to go! Thanks for inviting us!

Baby Shower!

Today I hosted my first baby shower ever. I actually had fun throwing a shower. Maybe it will encourage me to do more. OF course I am loser and have no pictures but here is one of the cute things I did for the shower. I made rice krispy treats. Shaped them in a ball. Added Blue Sprinkles and put in a popsicle stick so they were Rattles. I then attached a saying "Shake, Rattle & Roll Stephanie's having a boy" They looked cute on the table! Thanks to all who came and supported Stephanie. I hope everyone had a great time!

Teddy Bear Picnic 2010

Hailey was so excited for her Teddy Bear Picnic. Of course she picked Geerta to go. They had a great time! Here are some pictures!

Baby Shower

It's a boy! This Saturday I am hosting a baby shower for a dear friend of mine. I have never thrown a shower before so I am super excited. I have been working on this darling centerpiece. I maybe would change a few things next time but I still think it will look cute on the table. And then the new Mom to be will get to take the pot and blankets home> IF it was a girl I woudl have done flowers on it but since it was a boy I decided to keep it manly. I hope she likes it!

If I get brave maybe I will post the other fun things I am doing for the shower later this week! enjoy!

My Best Friends...

Every Wed we get to see my best friend Kate and her darling boys. Hailey loves Christian, Andrew & Owen. They are the best of friends. I Love this photo of the three of them. We had so much fun at the park today! They had quite the imagaination as they played..And Hailey loves when they play Power Rangers and she gets to be Pink Power ranger!and we can't leave out oh so cute Owen! I could keep this boy he is so cute and Happy!

Brown Sugar Muffins

I was craving these so we made them tonight. its been years but they were oh soo good!

Brown Sugar Muffins

1tsp Salt

2 tsp Soda

2 c brown Sugar

4 c Flour

1 c margarine (butter) cut into dry ingredients

2 c milk

2 eggs

Mix

Bake in cupcake holders400 degrees for 15 min!